26 years of stuff gone through, packed, loaded into my truck, and now in a stack in the garage. I left my office nearly empty of books and doo-dads and decor. All that remains is stuff going to a friend next Tuesday, stuff bequeathed to the new librarian, and the soon to be replaced computer.
I feel so fortunate to have been a part of MGMS. It’s the third middle school of my career. I was at WMS for the first 8 years–the years before CSAP. Then RMS–Camelot to me, “The Academy” (insert sarcasm font) to those not lucky enough to get a position there–for 13 years, and now the last 5 at MGMS–the Swamp–home of the Gators. MGMS is a rural school, drawing mainly from a low SES population. We struggle with test scores, but we LOVE our kids. The staff continually searches for whatever will help our kids connect to their learning. The building re-invented itself into a culture of reading these last few years, and continues to move forward to help our kids–they who probably have no books at all in their homes.
It feels weird to disconnect myself from this. I drove home in tears. I knew this was the end of my career, thought I was ready, and now I feel teary and a bit lost. Kind of like I felt at the end of The Book Thief. I knew exactly what would happen–any story narrated by death just cannot end well–and then the ending I expected happened and I wasn’t prepared for it at all. I sat on the couch, sobbing ’til my face hurt. So here I am at the end of a story, wondering what to read next and hoping for something as fabulous as the last one. I’m sad, but excited for the next chapter of my life.
I said my “so longs” to the literacy staff today. So long because we want to stay in touch. We’re thinking book club and other get-togethers. I’ve stayed in touch with friends from RMS, and have every intention of doing so with the Gators too. I’m keeping my Twitter name: @gatorgoddess, because my heart belongs to MGMS. I’m proud to be experiencing what I’ve heard said by others who have left MGMS before me: Once a Gator, always a Gator.
(The picture is my collection of gators, sitting on the “new books” cart in the library that was my home for the last 3 years. The gators came home with me today.)